So here I go opening a new door and stepping into a new experience (starting my own blog). I have been thinking about blogging for some time now, but have gone through my usual "head games" of talking myself in, out , and around actually doing it. We all know the pattern.... we tell ourselves "This looks really interesting and I think it would be a good idea to help me express myself, reach out and help others, motivate me to write more, etc..." but then "the voice" kicks in..."It's too complicated. I don't know how to do it. Who would want to read anything I have to write about? It's too much responsibility. There's already too many blogs our there that are better than mine, blah blah blah...."
It's interesting to take a step back before moving forward, and noticing all the self-defeating obstacles we put allow our mind to throw up to try and keep us "safe". I have personally spent (and still do spend) quite a lot of time and energy trying to stay safe and comfortable. But I have finally begun to realize that safe and comfortable can lead to stuck and frustrated and unfulfilled. I begin to feel I am wasting this great opportunity of Life as Todd by playing small. This frustration leads to agitation which leads to motivation and courage to get out on the dance floor of life and make things happen! To allow Spirit to move in and through me and use my talents and gifts to impact some positive change in the world. To make a difference, even if it's just in my own life. To be brave and confident and strong in the knowledge that we all have gifts to share, and to not share them because I am too scared or lazy.... in reality this becomes my biggest fear of all.....coming to the end of my time as Todd and feeling I did not recognize and honor my gifts and life my life to the fullest in service of all of Life's journey.
So, today I say "Yes" to a new and exciting creative opportunity and write this, my first but by no means last, blog post. ......and now that it's done I have to say it feels really good!
What are you going to say "Yes" to today?